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Going Back to Source

Life-form: a living creature/animate being

Life-source: a well or pool of sustenance for something or someone living.

I have always been a life-form: my body, and its energies.

But becoming a woman, and a mother - carrying a child in my womb, and then feeding and sustaining her from my own flesh and body (breast milk) turned me into a life-source.

My connection to the source of all life - energy, and mystery - was strongest when I was both a life-form, and a life-source.
God(?), or source, was sensed at its strongest, when I was breastfeeding my child.

I mourn that psychiatric doctors interfered with a connection they could not understand - they did not understand that it was detrimental to my physical and emotional and mental health to stop using *source to take care of and feed my daughter.

*source refers to God, or the divine, or universal forces - I.e. the naturally occurring milk that a mother makes for her child, with her natural body.

I am still saddened by the memory, but I am slowly letting go of the regret, and the pain of lost love (I imagine the way the doctors and nurses handled the birthing process of my firstborn caused my body and brain to respond as if my daughter had died in childbirth - I gave birth to her under the harsh lights of the hospital room, with a harassed nurse yelling at me that I wasn't doing enough, I wasn't doing my best to push. I eventually gave up and requested for me and my unborn child to be left to die on the birthing bed, with my baby crowning, but still inside me. She was vacuum-extracted, and then spent less than several heartbeats on my chest, skin-to-skin, before they had to take her away from me to complete blood tests).

My daughter is still in my life, and there are plenty of ways yet, to tap into source and grow this beatific child. ❤ There's hope yet.

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